“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Sunday, June 13, 2010

VLDC 12 ( R2 P2 ) : 197.4

Okay - I'm STRUGGLING - big time. I am having a really hard time sticking to the protocol. I cheated on Thursday night and Friday night when we went to the kids' fun fairs (each girl had one each on Thurs and Fri). So all day Thurs I was on protocol strict with lots of water and then we we got to the fun fair I had a hamburger with just one side of the bun. I was so hungry I got another one and did the same thing. My daughter won a cake in the cake walk and the icing was just calling my name. I ended up licking the icing off the reaming pieces of the cake. Very bad eating impulses - I know. So then Friday I was back on plan all day and at the fun fair that night they had a bake sale table. I was good for a while then I bought four cookies and ate them. Then I had a chicken burger. So Saturday I woke up to a 3.8 pound gain.

Yesterday (Saturday) I got back on track and had a 2.5 pound loss. The whole problem on Thurs and Fri is that I didn't plan and bring my dinner with me. I thought I could wait until after but the hunger and temptation won out.

Today we're going to the water park all day with a cooler. I am packing my lunch and will drink a gazillion bottles of water before I eat any of the chips or cheesies I packed with the childrens; picnic. Putting my bathing suit on today will be a reality/wake-up call that I need to get real about getting the rest of this weight off. Yesterday was nice because I drank so much water and ate strictly on protocol that I wasn't even hungry - I felt so full it was actually hard to eat all of my sald at dinner.


  1. I'm sorry to hear how hard it's been for you, but you learned a very valuable lesson about planning ahead. This protocol is too hard to do without planning, planning, and more planning!

    Keep drinking your water and stay on track. Have fun at the water park!

  2. I know how you feel. Today I am on injection 20 and I have lost around 6 lbs. Boo hoo! Hang in there!

  3. helderheid's right: planning is absolutely KEY to staying on this protocol. I usually make all of my lunches and dinners on Sunday afternoons, and then all I have to do is reheat during the week. I get so tired or busy with work that its too hard to make dinner/lunches every day.

    Don't worry too much about your gain/blip. It'll come off, and you'll be back on track. Hang in there! You CAN do this!!!

    many hugs to you!!

  4. You got some really good advice here. I know how terrible it is to struggle with protocol. I hope some fun in the sun at the waterpark will be relaxing and give you the strength to successfully finish protocol. You can do it!