“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Friday, March 12, 2010

VLCD 19: 213.7 ( R1 P2 )

Stayed completely on plan yesterday. Kind of stressed now. My husband just finally started a new contract today which will help so much but financially things are not good. I had to pay the hydro bill this morning as it was already overdue and I got the warning notice.

We are behind three mortgage payments. And, he's still working at night. He wakes up at 2 does his delivery job until 6. Then he goes to the next gov't job from 8-4. I feel bad for him but he knows that we have to get back on track financially. He'll be making a lot of money but I'm hoping the contract lasts for the full three months. My mom will take care of the baby during the day which I'm really thankful for. The reason we're in so much debt is because I took unpaid leave after my maternity leave was up and then when my husband got laid off last April I went back to work and he took a part-time But I've never been able to catch up on the arrears payments.

It will be a tough week until I get paid Thursday. My six year old is in a day camp for the full week starting Monday but I didn't sign my ten year old up for anything yet and now I can't. So I'll have the 10 and 2 year old for full days next week.

I have a major exam to study for which I have to write on the 19th so things are crazy now. I'm not going to give into the temptation to go off plan. I'll get through this week. Things will get better.