“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

VLCD 24: 208.3 ( R1 P2 ) TOM Day 5

I was reading another blog yesterday about eating eggs. So I thought why not? I had one egg and two egg whites scrambled. It was such a treat! It's funny that scrambled eggs would taste so damned good.

I'm only have two needles left which were rejects because teach one is only 3/4 of a full dose. I think I'll take one and then a bit of the other. I wonder if it would hurt just to take both. I don't think you can overdose??? I am going to mix the second batch tonight. It's such a pain because I need to watch the youtube video instructions while I do it because I'm paranoid I'll make a mistake. I'll need to find time to be completely alone so I don't get interupted.

I'm so excited that I received an email today for a job that I had applied for. The email gave details of the date and time for the written exam. I'll have to do research on the competencies so that I'm prepared. One more thing to study for but it's more security. The crown corporation where I work now is laying off massive amounts of employees and no one knows who's next. So I'll try my best on the test. The good thing is that my pension would be transferrable and I won't lose the vacation weeks that I have built up over 10 years.

My final law school exam for year one is this Thursday evening and I am no where near prepared. It is psyching me out and I'm wondering if I made a mistake trying to do law school part-time with all the rest of the craziness of my life right now. But I've made it almost through the first year. But I have visions of going completely blank when the exam starts and then puking. I'll be so much more calm when it is over. It's stressing but I'm doing my best to stay on plan with eating.