“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

VLCD 15 (2nd post today)

No weigh-in until tomorrow morning but I just had to share with you guys that ..... I GOT THE JOB!!

I was in shock today when my soon-to-be new director told me. He came by and I was on the phone so I called him up after and said that I had seen him come by and asked what I could do for him. He said to come down to his office and that's when he told me. I think I'm happy but really not too sure. A promotion is what I've been working for all these years but I really think the extra weight really affected my self perception and my confidence and also how I came across to other people. I know I'm by no means "thin" or "skinny" yet but 195 looks good on me and I think losing this 35 pounds so far has made a huge difference in a lot of areas of my life. I've mastered getting under 200 which has been an unreachable goal for so long.

It's funny that I haven't been feeling well the past few days with the sunburn and all and on the day of the interview I had to rush to the washroom and almost didn't make it just 10 minutes before the interview. I kept thinking that I would be late showing up and the interview panel woudl be sitting there waiting for me and I would be stuck in the washroom. Oh well. It went great beyond my expectations anyways. The director told me today that he was so extremely impressed with me that he doesn't think he could have done any better himself. My confidence level has gone so upwards because of this. Although it won't be a big salary increase what it does do is put me into the next salary bracket where the maximum is 25K higher than the bracket I'm in now. It will be a while but I can only go up in salary from here.

At the same time, even though my confidence has gone up that they *picked* me, I'm still scared to death of the change and what it entails. I am a good worker but I'm not sure of this new director and his style. I've always had a great working relationship that isn't militaristic or hierarchical with any other manager I've had. But with this person, I'm not too sure. He seems a little "old school" but I figure I need to take this leap. It's not my *dream* job but I'm sure it will open new doors for new opportunites.

Sorry to blabber on about this. I'm just so happy. And I think this weight loss journey has played a big part in getting to this point. I did everything right in the past in terms of working hard and networking and getting really good reviews but I really think I was lacking the confidence to get noticed for a promotion. The weight loss so far has put a lot more things into perspective for me.

Thanks ladies for all your support. It means so so much to me. I'm sending good loss or stabilitzing vibes to everyone.


  1. Let me be the first to wish you a BIG Congratulations on your new job!!!!! I'm thrilled to bits for you, and KNOW you are going to succeed beyond your wildest expectations! I agree that your recent weight loss has contributed to your confidence boost which I'm sure, was projected in your interview. You have a lot more success in your future- Sometimes others see the possibility in us before we can see it for ourselves. I think that's what's happening with you. It seems everyone around you sees your potential and you are being rewarded for it! Enjoy this time, and your new success. Its the beginning of many wonderful things coming your way!!!

    BIG hugs to you!!

  2. I couldn't possibly be more thrilled for you! Congratulations on the new job and the promotion!!! I'm excited for all the new opportunities this will bring to you and the choices you'll have.

    I'm sure the process of releasing the weight and the habits that went hand in hand with that had a huge impact on your self esteem which can only benefit you.

    I am SO excited for you!!!

  3. O Good job! I'm so happy for you. I know you are a little worried but you will ace it with the new boss! I just know it :) Congrats on your new lb too! Such a great day to be savored.

  4. I am so glad to hear this good news! You are awesome and keep up the great job! I am so excited for you!
    Keep us posted !