“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Day 6 ( R1 P4 ) : 201.4

That's 2.8 pounds above LIW. I seem to be stabilizing at or about 200-201. It's strange because some days I'll go down to 199 and then the next day back up to 201.

I'm seriously considering starting R2 P2 with the drops instead of injections very soon. Have to do some gearing up for it and then want to go full speed ahead. We went to a brunch buffet this morning and it would have been a perfect situation for a loading day. But I'm still on P4 so no such luck.

Haven't posted lately because I've been on a real serious pity party as of late and don't want to be a "debbie downer".

Things are getting better - well not really but it's my attitude that's getting better. All of this crap is within my ability to change and fix and it's just one step at a time. Once I have the house appraised this Saturday, it will give me a better indication of what I should do.

I went for a job interview Thursday - it would be a promotion if I get it. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. There have been so many of my colleagues laid off over the last year that I wonder if it's secure to stay with the company I'm with but a promotion in a different department might make sense. I definitely have a fear of change and moving out of a comfort zone even if it's not that comfortable but just familiar. Maybe I'll have good news soon.


  1. I hope you have good news soon on ALL fronts Kathryn! the job promotion alone would be terrific for you! Surely that would mean a raise (?) which would build your confidence even more. Especially if things were to change in your personal life. I hope you had great results with your home appraisal yesterday too-

    That's good news about your weight and the fact that you ARE stabilizing! I've always struggled with the stabilizing part of this protocol. I have no trouble losing the weight, stabilizing is where I face the BIG challenge!

    When do you hear whether you get the promotion? I've got my fingers crossed for you!

    Hugs to you!!

  2. Thanks LD. The house appraisal is this upcoming Saturday and I might find out about the job situation sometime this week. We'll see. I write a test for another job competition with the federal gov't this upcoming week too so there are a couple of possibilities. I've given Mr. K. an ultimatum of get a longer-term contract within the next week and go to counselling and stop the computer viewing. We'll see what he does with that.

  3. all good! I hope Mr. K takes you up on your ultimatum. Its fair. Keep us posted on your job-- I'll be praying for you!

  4. Happy Mother's Day! keeping my fingers crossed on all of the above ;)

  5. keeping my fingers crossed as well- good luck- I totally understand about the wierd stabilaizing thing!
    Keep us posted and I missed you but understand sometimes sharing is the last thing we want to do!
    Keep us posted girl!

  6. Thank you Kathryn for your very sweet comment on my blog this evening. I think you hit the nail on the head about why I'm feeling the way I am. Thank you SO much for your insight...

    many hugs to you, my friend-

  7. You're doing great with stabilizing. I found out the hard way that P4 is just as important as the other phases so hang on in there! Sending you energy for success and attainment. You're doing it!