“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Thursday, October 21, 2010

R3 P2 VLCD 4 : 203.9

Well it's day 4 and I'm down 7.1 pounds. That's only half of the14 pound loading gain lost but I'll take it.

I am still disgusted at myself that I went back up over 200 again all the way to 211 with the loading. I had been stabilized between 190-195 before the loading. Oh well. I still have 39 injections left. So enough time to get back make some good headway into the lower decades of numbers. Something in the 180's would be nice.

I had to defer my trip to San Fran to write the bar exam. It really bothers me that I'm not prepared and I'm losing quite a hefty registration fee. But I will register again for next June. With starting the new job and trying to prove myself to the new director and juggling all the craziness I wasn't able to get in all the study that is required and I definitely know that I'm not prepared enough to write that exam and get a passing mark. I think it would be worse if I wrote it and failed. I am still really disappointed in myself though. I know I shouldn't be but having a plan and not seeing it through really eats at my core. It came to a point of paying attention to my 3 girls and spending time with them or locking myself in a quiet room all night after work to study. My children had to come first. So on to plan B and I have 7 months to spread out the study that needs to get done. I have to be strict and plan accordingly to stick to the schedule.

Welcome to the new HCG community members. Thanks everyone for your supportive comments. It helps to know that you have people rooting for you that know the drill.

Sending good releasing and/or stabilizing vibesto everyone.

P.S. has anyone heard of the clothing brand BENCH? All 11 year-olds are into that now and I just can't believe the prices they charge for the poor quality. Oh well. $89 plus tax later. I finally gave in because her marks are all A+ and she's been helping at home. She's estatic to wear it to school tomorrow.

8 comments:

  1. I think you made the right decision with the bar exam. You need to go into it feeling very confident. You WILL be that way next go-round-- PLUS you'll look AMAZING by then too! That'll be another source of confidence for you. Do not be disappointed in yourself. You made the BEST decision for you and your family right now. As to not seeing a plan through: you now have a different, better plan, that you WILL see through. Don't look back. The first plan wasn't the best plan, and you've remedied that. You have a better, more logical plan in place now.

    Sorry I don't know about girl's clothing, but I'll bet your daughter's happy!

    XXOO (I have every confidence you are going to ACE the bar exam-- you're one smart gal, and your new clients will be very lucky to have you representing them!)

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  2. oh, and another thing-- way to go on your super-duper loss!! Do not worry about how much you gained on loading. It's gonna come off really quickly (-7.1lbs in 4 days is amazing), and you won't be struggling with hunger pangs this week. This is going to be a terrific round for you, and I have no doubt that you are going to see the 180's!!

    XO

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  3. That load weight is going to FLY off. I wouldn't be too concerned! You'll get down to 180 before you know it!

    Also, I agree with LD here - you did the right thing. It's too important a thing to try to tackle without your head being totally in the game. You'll get there. You absolutely will get there and you will pass the bar. You'll also have a great trip to enjoy once you do!

    Thank you for always being there for me!

    *HUG*

    Can't wait for your next update!!

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  4. I think you are right to defer the exam. More time to study can only help you at this point (even though I know you'll knock it out of the park) I applaud the fact that you are clear headed enough to see your priorities and act accordingly. Knew I liked ya for a reason ;)
    Good job on the awesome loss, keep going, there's plenty of time to get to your goals, just stick with it!

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  5. You've been gone for a while. How have you done on this round? Hope you are doing well! Looking forward to your next update (hopefully soon)! *huggs*

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  6. Hey, were are ya? Hope you are well.

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  7. lol...typo. I meant where are ya ;)

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  8. Hey there! Thanks for telling me about that book! As well as the insightful comments!! But I just ordered it- It seems like the perfect book for me. Right now I'm starting "A Course In Weight Loss- 21 Spiritual Lessons for Surrending your weight forever" By Marianne Williamson. It seems like it's going to be a good book to really dig down deep to figure out the root of the problem. I'm not the most spiritual person but I think it will be a good read. I'll let you know! Take care!

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