“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Not too sure what day it should be !

I'm hovering anywhere between 198 and 202. I didn't post today's weight because the last time I weighed was Saturday and I was 199.
The package containing my injections arrived this week. It made it over the border past the customs militants in record time. It's Ovidac brand. Not sure what I used the first round as this protocol was all new to me then and I didn't realize that there are different brands. If anyone has any ratings (postive or negative) about Ovidac, I'd love to hear them. But I do know that I definitely prefer the injections. The spray really wasn't the best quality and I was super hungry for the last part of when I was taking it. I think the guy I bought it from cooked it up on a homemade chemistry set in his basement.

It's been a crazy time since I last posted. We went on a mini vacation to Canada's Wonderland (June 30 - July 2) and the girls loved it. It was TONS of walking because the amusement park was huge. They're trying to copy Disney in every way and they're doing a great job of it. The only thing is that the food on site was soooo expensive. For example a slice of pizza was $12. The second day we went off site to eat when I realized that the day parking pass included "in/out" privileges.

I started my new job officially June 30th even though I was off that day. It's been stressful as I'm still in the transition between old job and new job and still sitting in the same place on the same floor - jsut making more money and reporting to a new director. I really like my new director so far but it's a lot of change to take in and they have a lot of expectations for this role and I just hope I can live up to it.

My in-laws are coming to visit for a few days starting tomorrow and one of my bathrooms is still all torn up with the door locked because we can't afford to finish the reno right now. I also have to decide if I will fly to San Fran in late October to write the 1st year law school bar exam. The registration fee is $650 plus another $800 for my flight and hotel. I have until July 31 to register and make the decision if I will have enough time to study and be sure that I will pass because I don't want to go through all the effort and money if I don't pass. I passed the first year of law school. Not sure how I did it with all the stress and three screaming but beautiful kids and losing weight but I think being on the protocol and being in that strict mindset really helped with the focusing on the study. So I'm quite proud of the achievement. Three more years to go.

I enjoy reading all of your blogs and the community of support. So keep up the great work ladies/gentlement (well mostly ladies!) and I'm sending you all good vibes for loss or stabilitzation!

So...it's not the best time to be on protocol P2 right now and be able to dedicate the energy and mental state that it requires to be dedicated and strict. TOM is due any time now so I will decide if I will start P2 after that.


  1. Wow! You HAVE been busy! I am thrilled that your hcg got by inspections, and you have the real deal! I used Ovidac-brand last round, and had a great result-- you will too. Just knowing you have the real stuff will help you along this round. You won't have the hunger issues that you did last time, which will be a HUGE relief! I also think you will see better results, weight-loss-wise.

    Thankfully something (your desk/space) is familiar, even though everything else in your new job is 'new'! I have every confidence that you will be spectacular in this new position, and it is only the beginning of an upward trajectory for you!!

    hugs to you!

  2. Goodness gracious, lady! You're slammed!

    I have every confidence in you and your new position. It's terrific you're getting along with your new boss! Great start!

    I've not used Ovidac but know those who have and have had wonderful results.

    I'd love a trip to San Fran... but perhaps not with all the pressure you'd be under if you decide to go. Let us know what you decide to do!

  3. Thanks HH. I'm looking foward to getting onto the ovidac and gearing up for P2 again.

    Thanks for always pointing out the positive. It is comforting to have the familiarity of my desk and cubicle space while going through this transition.

  4. OMG... Busy busy busy. Let me know how the Ovidac goes for you. Do you prepare all of your injections before hand? And do you freeze the extra? I've been keeping them all in the freezer and then just let them sit out of a couple of minutes before taking them so they aren't too cold.