“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

All the injections are mixed - should I still call this R2?

Hello ladies and gentlemen. All the injections are mixed - 40 in total. The brand is Ovidac. For now they're sitting in an empty covered margarine container in the fridge but I think I'll freeze 20 of them. I've never frozen before but I've heard positive things about it.

I've had two days of loading. Not sure if I ate enough because I don't have that "ready to puke" feeling but I sure did eat a lot today. I am scared to get on the scale. But I will tomorrow morning and I'm hoping it's not too much damage.

I've had two failed attempts at semi-rounds of R2P2 ( which I'm pretty sure I can attribute to the hcg spray I bought off Ebay). But even so I think I will still call this round R2 again. I am determined to get as far away from 200 as possible this time. It's not good for the psyche when you rotate between the low to mid 190's and the low 200's.

Things are still kind of in transition between the old job and the new job and they will be for quite some time because I haven't reached the comfort level that I want to be at yet and things with Mr. K are not the greatest and require A LOT of energy and I am starting to feel out of control in a lot of areas again. I will have to maintain a super level of focus while studying for this upcoming bar exam and I don't want to gain any more weight while doing that. I really like the level of focus and determination that being on the protocol gave me. Being very strict with eating transfers over to getting other areas of my life organized and more focused. So here's to a successful R2P2!

Sending good loss and/or stabilization vibes to everyone...


  1. First, thanks for the advice on my blog - I REALLY appreciate it.

    I have such a good feeling about this round for you! You'll make it. I just know you will. You need to do this for you and the rest will fall into place.


  2. I'm with helderheid: I have a good feeling about this round-- its your OFFICIAL R2!

  3. Good Luck and I have enjoyed reading your blog!

    And question...by saying you are going to freeze 20 of them, do you mean needles filled with hcg?

  4. Kathryn,
    This is the R2 that is going to stick! You can do it. You've got a LOT going on in your life, but maybe all of that will be the distraction you need to make this round work. Best wishes to you.

  5. Thanks ladies for all of the encouragemens - its so appreciated knowing that you guys are rooting for me.

    I am going to freeze the 20 prepared needles (with the Hcg mixture already in them). I read that I should wrap them in tinfoil (basically to keep them out of the light). I haven't done it yet though.

  6. Hey, quick question - you are taking an injection a day during loading days, right? You're supposed to - that may be part of any struggle you're having, if you're not. I've heard you can freeze the HCG too, not sure of the procedure, though. I've had some great rounds and some not so great rounds, so I understand, but don't let that discourage you. Best wishes!

  7. Hi Kathryn, I left you something on my blog. :) Hope things are going well for you!