“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Day 8 ( R1 P3 ) : 199.9

Creeping up a little bit. Think I have to cut back on the cool-whip just in case. I like to have a couple of tbsp with some sugar-free jello and almonds mixed in.

Thanks for the advice on the TV. And you know what - I did deserve it given the hard work I have done staying on protocol for 47 days and losing 32.5 pounds. I got a year-end bonus from work so I felt a bit better about the expense. I paid $350 for a 32 inch LCD TV and then $25 for the environmental fee. With taxes it came to over $400 but I don't regret it. It's not a brand name TV but the picture is amazing. We're watching just the regular satellite channels but I have to investigate getting the HD terminal instead of just the regular digital box. Plus I need to find a higher table to put the TV on just to prevent the baby from getting too close. She's a handful but such a joy at the same time.

I bought two new summer dresses on the weekend. I also bought two short-sleeved sweater shrugs to cover my flabby arms but I must say I do look amazing in them. I brought them into the dressing room thinking that they wouldn't fit because they are just XL and not from a plus size store but they fit! I haven't felt so sexy looking in a long time. It's harder to get dressed in the morning though because I have so many clothes that are either too big or still a little too small from the days when I would buy clothes in smaller sizes because they were on sale and thinking I would get into them *some day*.

The only issue I'm having is feeling soooooo tired. I don't know if I'm having some sort of vitamin deficiency but I'm eating red meat so I don't think it's iron deficiency but I don't know. By 2 pm I feel like I could just pass out and fall asleep.


  1. You're doing so great, and sound like you're in a lovely place right now! Congrats on your new sizes- that's such a good feeling. Right before my TOM, I start getting extremely fatigued, and could fall asleep at the drop of a hat. Maybe that's you too?

  2. I am so excited for you on the TV and th non - plus sizes- THAT IS INCREDIBLE!
    I went through that last week and same feeling- I feel so sexy also! So kudos to you and u r amazing!
    I agree with Lavenderdiva- maybe TOM time- I have kept up B12 and it has helped with my energy level- try some- it might help!
    Again- the joy of being out of plus sizes and yes- to hide those arms until I can deal with them- it is a joy!!!!
    Love to see some new pictures- I will try to post some of me this weekend!
    Hope you feel better and keep up the good work-
    At night instead of cool whip _ I take fresh strawberries in the blender with ice and half a banana and two tablespoons of sugar fee french vanilla coffee creamer and make a shake- it is awesome! Stay well and have a great friday!