“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Monday, April 19, 2010

Day 6 ( R1 P3 ) 198.6

So glad that I am maintaining the loss.

Took today off. My 2-year old is cranky and still sick and slept from 6pm last night till 5 this morning. I didn't go to bed last night until after midnight so I am tired. I took the day off and brought her late to the daycare after the * TV episode * this morning.

Sshe sprayed the TV with the entire contents of the water spray bottle that I use for my hair to keep it curly in between washings. So now the TV is busted. It's a 1993 model so it is technically time for a new one but it worked perfectly. I don't see the sense in buying a new LCD or Plasma TV when the old one was working just fine. What I don't know I'm missing in the high-tech world won't hurt me. So now I have to decide if I take the smaller TV from storage and use that or just break down and buy a new one that we can't really afford to buy.

Arrrrrrrgh....it's days like this that make me stressed but I am not really interested in turning to food so that's a good thing. Before I would think , oh i'm stressed so I have an excuse to pig out.
It feels good to not have to turn to overeating to deal with life. I hope I can make this attitude permanent.


  1. There are some killer buys out there, especially in this economy. Have you considered buying used? I know a lot of people are selling stuff to help pay their taxes this time of year. I warn you though... once you go HD, you'll NEVER go back! It's gorgeous. Perhaps you could consider this a reward for all the hard work you've put into yourself!

  2. I think you're doing really maintaining! and it seems the way you're dealing with stress is really good too- I'm sorry about your TV. helderheid is right though: once you try HD, it'll spoil you! If you do decide to splurge and get an HDTV, know that its not enough to just buy the TV, you'll have to subscribe to the HD channels with your cable provider-- yet another expense. Of course, you can buy the HDTV and not use the HD part, and just watch it like normal. You can sign up for the HD channels with your cable provider later.....