“Set Yourself Free” by Ralph Marston"

---"There is no outside force holding you back. You are holding you back and you are blaming it on someone or something else. The way you are able to continue holding yourself back is by maintaining the illusion that you're a victim. Once you realize that illusion, you will naturally and easily move forward. In fact, it is easier to fulfill your best possibilities than it is to avoid them. So let go of the blame and watch the limitations drop away. Certainly there will always be challenges that hold you back. For each challenge provides you with a pathway through which you can move toward fulfillment. It is your very nature to accomplish. Lovingly accept your destiny, and allow that accomplishment to be manifest through you. Set yourself free to follow your purpose. Set yourself free to truly live."

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Day 14 ( R1 P3 ): 199.8

Back down to +1.2 LIW. It's bizarre that after the amount of sugar and starch I ate Saturday that I did not gain any weight from that. But it's not something I want to experiment with further. I did not end up doing a steak day but last night I did have a huge steak for dinner.

I'm okay on P3 because there is such a variety of what I can eat. But I must say that my body did feel better on P2. My stomach did not feel unsettled and I didn't have to run to the bathroom suddenly like I have had to a few times on P3. I'm looking foward to the next round.

I'm finding that there's a lot of emotional bullshit rearing it's ugly head lately. I didn't ask for it but the weight loss seems to be bringing the emotional issues out front and centre. I don't know why and will have to think long and hard about it. Somedays I just feel like bursting out crying for no reason at all. While writing this what popped into my head is that I have missed out on so much and been in so much denial being fat. Obviously, I have some work to do.


  1. Thanks for stopping by my blog. For the HCG drops, I believe they're all standard with 6 drops 6x day. But double check with whoever you buy it from. Good luck and can't wait to follow your journey!

  2. I know what you mean. Some grieving needs to be done. Emotions are mixed - mind and body are not in the same place at the same time. It's more complex and dynamic than just "lose the weight and find bliss".

  3. I totally get it. I had/have lots of emotional breakdowns about stuff. But most of the time it's things from the past, regrets, thinking about things that I missed out on, etc, etc. But if you focused on those things you wouldn't get anywhere because that is the past. I have learned that I will NEVER miss out on anything from now on. I have learned that I will no longer do those things that caused me regrets. I have learned that NOW I can live the life that I want to. And you can do the same!

  4. You're right Kathryn- the hcg protocol really brings up a lot of emotional issues that we need to deal with. They're probably the reason we became overweight to begin with. That's the beauty of blogging-- there's always going to be someone else who will weigh-in, who's a little further down the road than we are, and can give us encouragement & advice.

    Sounds like you're really maintaining well! congratulations!

  5. Gurl, I'm totally feeling U! I'm at a place I really didn't think I would be. Afraid (with total awareness) of being thin again! That's why I just keep "indulging." It's like I'm thinking "yeah, give me a minute..." What's great about this is that I WILL lose the weight with HCG, but first...

  6. TOTALLY get it. Completely. I went through that as well. Looking in the mirror after releasing all that weight that I struggled with for 8 years was quite the experience. I hadn't seen that me in so long, it really hit all at once and I burst into tears, not only because I was so happy, but also, like you said, so sad that it was such a long time since seeing that me. I missed out on a lot. I was sleepwalking through my life those years. I was completely absent from my life and my family. *HUG*

  7. Kathryn- Our weight was put on emotionally and it will come off emotionally. I totally feel you and the demons in your closet! I hope you have support at home- when I was able to be honest to Mr. Fleur- about my emotions and how I really feel- the weight was not between us ( like it is when we hug) I really felt closer. Being truthfull about fat and being fat is really hard . You are stronger though- your kids know you are stronger- because you have to be!
    I had to get help with a 12 step program amd I found it online- found a local group and went to realize I had an addiction. Once I was honest- I began the road to heal. It is freeing to be honest- not just in a blog but face to face wiith people!